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Hundred sixty acres of lipstick criminal moonlight
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[Oct. 2nd, 2006|10:56 am]
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I'm a myspace kid now, if you want to find me there, search for me under the name Andre Kormendi.
That is all. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2006|03:33 pm]
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Insanity.
School's well.
House's well.
Friends seem well.
Yet I don't feel secure.
I should be as happy as I've ever been... and maybe I am... but I don't feel happy enough. Getting laid. But there's no love. Friendship yes, but I'm not in love. Goodness knows I'm a junky for that romantic feeling, maybe withdrawal is getting to me. And of course I hurt other people by not being in love. Fuck.
And yet it will happen again.. |
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| Heyhey! |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|10:35 pm]
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Wow, say some shit that I need to update, and I get back here quickly to remedy the situation.
I should do that all the time.
I'm having so much fun these past few weeks. Learning Mandarin Chinese rocks!
I really hurt Cassie's feelings on New Year's Eve kissing another girl in front of her. That was shady of me. I really wish I'd have figured out a way to not be such an ass about letting her know that I wouldn't be the kind of boy she wanted. c'est la vie.
I've decided I'm too sensible to pursue Maria further, although she still makes for good company. I just don't really have any need to fuck up my chill vibe by worrying about girls.
I've quit smoking again, mostly... I've been having the occasional cigar. But I've been running... a lot.
Miles a day, it's crazy. My ass, thighs, calves: all steel! Well, perhaps not quite yet, but I do look better naked than I did two weeks ago, and I did 22 laps around the track today easily, so my stamina's up too...
Been hanging out more and more with Christina. She's a great girl, a lot of fun to hang out with. As usual, things may be messy, but again, why worry and mess up my vibe.
Still playing too much Kingdom of Loathing. I'm such a nerd. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2005|06:03 am]
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Wow... it's been a while, and I've even been online quite often with school and such over the last months, but as always, I'm quite distractable.
( Gosh, what's up with me.Collapse )
-D |
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[Oct. 9th, 2005|11:14 pm]
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Quick one. Love my house, schools rockin', Brandon's leaving for Portugal on Tuesday, I'm having lots of fun. Sweet. Peace. |
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[Sep. 20th, 2005|04:14 pm]
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Oh... wow... leaving all you hungry fans without an update for months. I'm lucky there wasn't rioting.
First: I have a house!
After all sorts of nightmares in learning the real estate market, a house was purchased just north of Depot Town in Ypsilanti to house me over the next couple years. I have outfitted it with all sorts of wonderful furniture from the ReUse Center in Ann Arbor. I feel comfortable there as I haven't felt comfortable in any of my domiciles for years. I am now a slum lord. Stop by and visit.
Second: I'm back in school!
Yes, yes, I know I've already spent 7 years in college. But Eastern Michigan University has accepted me (god bless their sweet hearts, and save their souls) and is currently trying to educate me. No longer will I be studying philosophy which, while interesting, doesn't pay well. Business and computer classes will give me more marketable skills, and I'll just have to enroll in a few electives to keep my sanity. Tuesdays are busy, class from 2:00-9:45 with a break for dinner.
Third: Single again!
It's been months, and that's enough on that topic.
Fourth: Everything else!
I should be having my own internet connection soon, once my tenant has figured out how to set up his router to let me use his wireless connection. I can't afford 60$ a month for internet otherwise. Brandon's heading to Portugal on October 15th for some stem-cell procedure that's supposed to help restore him to his previous ninja-like coordination. I've been watching commercial free television lately. Battlestar Galactica is amazing, Lost is addictive, and Firefly is funny, and so cheesy it's great. I've also continued to read. George R. R. Martin's "Song of Fire and Ice" rocked my world. Septimus Heap, though, not so much, but I've only just started with that. Boondocks comic collections have helped my bowels move with jiggly-laughter-action(tm) and help me to feel like I'm still a subversive despite my change in topic of study.
Well, I gotta snag me some dinner before my evening class, or I will collapse and die. Updates will be more regular now. Oh! I have a new email address too.
- Dre |
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| An odd time. |
[May. 4th, 2005|04:39 am]
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'Tis a wonderful 4:40 AM here in Farmington Hills, MI, where I've been visiting my friend, Brandon, whose space bar is rather sticky and irritating. My car is "warming up" outside, and has been for quite a while. It seems that my car decided to lock itself after I started it. Now I am waiting for Captain Lockout of the 9 Mile and Middlebelt Towin' Station to come save me with his magic kit. *sigh*
well they're here. bye =) |
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[Mar. 7th, 2005|03:52 pm]
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Laughter has been my theme of late. Giggling like a damned schoolgirl at the drop of a hat.
Damn this girl and what she does to my usually stoic exterior.
It seems like all I've been writing about lately on here is Cassie, which is somewhat bothersome to me. I guess it is understandable though, I don't have internet access at home, so I only write here when I'm visiting her, and then she's usually on my mind. She just went off to her conducting class, and we spent the past hour and a half or so chilling on her bed as she read selected sections of her journal to me. I realized how important of a gift it is to yourself to record your life in such a way. She was able to bring back those moments of this past year and laugh and remember and ... well, my life is just a tad more hazy. So I think I ought to try and be writing more again. This LJ was supposed to be an outlet for me to write and express and record, but I haven't been using it, so precious precious time is slipping away, and leaving little mark ... tragic really.
What's new in my world? Hunter S. Thompson killed himself a little over a week ago. Hearing that news really fucked me up. Ever since I first read Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas about 6 years ago - 7 maybe - I've wanted to write like that. To spill my stream of thoughts onto a page, my own life with playful embellishments and personal philosophy, humor, adventure and create genius. And he's a suicide.
Fuck you HST.
You yourself would have written something scathing about somebody who you thought made a difference taking the easy way out like that, but I guess you couldn't handle the booze and pills anymore. I don't really know... I've been feeling in a sort of limbo since then, wondering if that lifestyle - not the booze and pills, but the outlaw journalism - is something I could really handle. We'll see... I need to write more before I can even begin to think of living that dream, but I've just been lazy.
RIP
Anyway, that's the dream career. Reality career is a completely different issue right now. Still unemployed, of course... the idea of getting another job doesn't really appeal to me. And I've been blessed enough to have the luxury of making that choice, as my father will support my laziness. However, I do need to find something to do to fill all the empty hours. I was thinking about volunteering. My boy Russell was telling me about this place in downtown Ann Arbor, called the Neutral Zone (I think), that is a mostly teen run center for youth... I guess they provide a positive environment for the disadvantaged to have fun without getting into trouble. Regardless, they organize shows and it seems like it would be a really cool place to help out, and perhaps I could make a difference. That really appeals to me, seeing as I was a troubled youth in my time (still am, really) I could give back a little, and have some fun, make some friends... all around positivity... and justify my existence as something other than a leech on my father's bank account.
My video game addiction has been back in full swing lately. As part of my depressive funk that has ensued from losing my job, I decided to purchase a GameCube, because what I really need is to waste more time, y'know. Beat Zelda's Windwaker in 4 days and Super Mario Sunshine in 2 days.... didn't do much else, not even eating, in that time. I also purchased Starfox: Assault, which was a big disappointment (for you fans of Starfox 64 out there) and a few other games, but nothing's really grabbed me. Which is probably good, because if I had a non-stop flow of games that really involved me, and nothing to distract me from it, I very well might starve to death clutching the controller, and at the very least would probably never do anything productive. Luckily I've managed to stop myself on occasion, do some reading... Finally finished "Path of Daggers" by Robert Jordan, book eight of the Wheel of Time series, that I've mentioned many times in this journal. Very pleasing, and Winter's Heart (book nine) has been quite enjoyable so far as well.
What else? hmm... Brandon had a fundraiser just recently, raised ten thousand dollars or so towards getting him fixed up, which is really cool... I just hope these experimental procedures can actually help him out. The folks in China who have some stem cell method that apparently can work miracles told him that his injury was too severe for it to likely help him. Very saddening news for me to hear. He signed up for their waiting list anyway, so if it comes to him getting that done hopefully it will exceed their expectations. December of 2006, though... quite a long wait for him, bollocks. He wants to move out of his parents house and go back to school, wants to live with me, which is awesome, although I'm somewhat frightened of the responsibility. I know I could handle taking care of all the things that he'd need that he'd remember to tell me about, it's just the stuff that irritates him but he should do anyway that I'd have to force him to do... I certainly don't want him to become as irritated with me as he has become with his mother, but I couldn't live with letting his health decline in my care either. His parents have nixed the idea anyway, so that's a long way off on the horizon, but hopefully something will work out... The stress of his homelife has gotta be killler.
Anyway, Cassie's back from class, so I'm gonna hang out with her and cuddle, because that's much more fun than typing. Until later - Pizzity. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2005|06:08 pm]
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whew, it's been a long while... many things have changed.
Fired from Zingerman's Deli two weeks ago. Fuck that place. I worked really hard, and because of one minor slip of the tongue when I was having a really bad day, they let me go.... Very strict customer service policy. Oh well, I was falling apart from working too many hours anyway.
Still quasi-dating Cassie... I'm not feeling so jealous, but still don't feel secure. She seems to like me a lot, but not as much as I like her, which is more every time I see her. I told her I loved her about a month ago, and I think I basically gave her carte blanche (sp?) to treat me as she likes, which is generally very nicely, but you'd think I'd have learned by now not to get so attached to someone. Regardless, she tells me quite often that she likes me a lot, so I'm just gonna enjoy myself for now, and maybe one of these days things'll change... I don't really understand her, or any women really...
This weekend has been unbelievably amazing though, all sorts of folk came out of the woodwork to visit Alma while I've been here, folks I haven't seen in forever, and it really has made things great. Cassie's had me laughing nearly non-stop and I'm getting along quite well with everyone, although there are some friends of mine around who seem somewhat down, and that's a little worrisome to me... I wish I could share some of the extra joy I have, pass it on.
There's not much else in the way of news, kinda looking for a new job, applied at a sex-toy shop and some kind of activist position for GLBT rights, but not really for anything else... I just kinda slipped into a depressed sleep after getting fired, and wasn't very communicative with anyone... Visited Brandon a lot, which is fun, but isn't really the best for getting out of depressed funks. He keeps me too stoned to sort anything out in my life, and I tend to focus more on his problems than my own while I'm hanging out with him... But it at least kept me from being too down, just kept me unmotivated. This weekend though ought to have been revitalizing enough that when I return to home I will have all the energy and zip I need to get a new job and move on with my life. I was planning on leaving today, but there's a ridiculous blizzard going on right now, dropped about a foot of snow in the past 8 hours around here... it's petering out now, so maybe I'll leave soon, but it's getting dark, and the lure of cuddling with Cassie is always a difficult thing to give up.
Anyway, I oughtta get going, because I don't much like typing these while other people are watching, but I'll try and keep this updated more frequently. |
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